I know P meant to be good to me, I really do, but I also noticed that he becomes annoyed if I am not pleased with his effort.
Goodness and badness are one side of the same coin. I can use 30% of my energy to do good things, but I can also use the 30% to do bad things. The choice is up to me.
The effort to ignore my feelings is the worst choice. Before I can accept myself as who I am, I wouldn’t know how to accept the others the way they are.